By JoCelyn Medina
Ever since I was a little girl I’ve always dreamt of having a career and being a powerful businesswoman. Instead of playing with baby dolls, I would put my mom’s high heels on, take her keys, get in my little pink convertible, and say “Bye mommy! I’m going to work.”
For my 11th birthday, all I wanted was a fake cell phone and a day planner. I was ecstatic when I got my wish. I remember using my day planner all the time and pretending to be on important business calls. I thought that was completely normal and I truly believed in my 11 year old heart that every other girl dreamt the same way as me.
It wasn’t until I grew into a young woman that I realized that wasn’t really “normal.” I realized that I didn’t fit the “Christian woman mold.” I realized that I was different. I realized how outspoken and bold I am. I realized that I was chosen to be a leader. I realized that God gave me unique skills and abilities to use for his kingdom. I realized that the Lord implanted those dreams in my heart ever since I was a little girl. I realized that pursuing a career in business is my calling. I realized that Corporate America is such a dark place and so many people need Jesus there. I realized how much God-given influence I carry. I realized how many people can be impacted by a powerful and Godly leader. I realized that the more I have delighted myself in the Lord, the more he has sparked a fire in my heart for the pursuit of these dreams.
Sometimes I still struggle with “not fitting” and being different. I often wonder if a Godly man will ever want to marry an outspoken, bold woman who wants to pursue a career and will quite possibly make more money than him. I’m hard on myself when I don’t use my influence in the best way, or when my words are cutting, or when I can’t be as laid back as my friends. I sometimes wish I wasn’t the way I am, but then I remember that I’m fearfully and wonderfully made and God didn’t mess up when he created me. He’s reminded me over and over again that he made me the way I am for a purpose, and the people around me need me to be who he created me to be.
When people’s opinions, the world around me, or the enemy tries to shake my identity, I always come back to the truth of where my identity is rooted. Who I am doesn’t depend or change based on anyone’s opinion, or the changes in our world, or attacks from the enemy, or even church culture. Who I am depends solely on the GREAT I AM. I am who God says I am – He calls me his daughter and his beloved. He says I am fiercely loved, I am cherished, I am treasured, I am beautiful, I am strong, I am joyful, I am unique, I am wonderful, I am free, I am redeemed, I am healed, I am saved, and I am chosen – all because of Him!
Being rooted in the truth and knowing who I am is the only way I can confidently pursue my calling. I’m not afraid because I know the Lord is with me and I know that he will open the right doors in his perfect timing. I have so much peace about the dreams he’s placed in my heart. I’m so excited to see his plan unfold and continue this adventure with him. I’m so grateful that he’s given me so much clarity, peace, wisdom, and vision. He is so good and so faithful.
Sweet friend, if you are ever struggling with being shaken, go back to the truth of who God says you are. It’s okay to be different, it’s okay if you don’t fit, and it’s a beautiful thing to be free. We don’t have to live in a box or try to “fit in.” As long as our identity is rooted deep in Jesus and we are living in obedience, we can be who God created us to be and let the rest fall into place.
“Delight yourself in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart” Psalm 37:4
“Seek first His kingdom and His righteousness and all these things will be given to you.” Matthew 6:33